She walked into the house. The pain in her chest was so strong. Maybe she was having a heart attack. Perhaps she was dying and maybe she hoped she was.
The walls echoed the sound of her child’s laughter from earlier this morning. She had been goofing off, dawdling at breakfast. Telling jokes, and Sandra had yelled out of irritation. Valerie had spilled her bowl of cheerios. Splashing milk all over Sandra’s new skirt.
Her daughter’s big brown eyes got wide and her lip had puckered out. “Sorry Mommy!”
Sandra covered her ears. “Sorry Mommy!” Her daughter’s voice, the sad look in her eyes kept replaying in her mind, over and over. “Sorry Mommy!” Sandra screamed at the top of her lungs, til she could scream no more.
Why, why hadn’t she kissed her little girl goodbye! She had scrambled to change her skirt and then to get Valerie out the door, before she missed her bus. If only she had held onto her a little longer.
Eric held the tickets in his hand. It was going to be a father and son weekend. His son would have been so excited. He could picture him jumping up and down, his face shining with joy! This would have been his first Nascar race. Eric buried his face in his hands, his shoulders shaking with anguished sobs. If only he had hugged his son Goodnight for a little longer.
Tears rolled down her face as she watched the video for the 12th time. The video that she and her little sister had made last night. They were singing a goofy song together and making funny faces . Oh how tight a squeeze her little sister had given her right before bed. So happy she had been that her big sis had spent time with her. If only she could hold onto her now, she would never let go.
“I want to be just like you when I grow up!” Brett sat on his little brother’s bed. He remembered how he had screamed Brett’s name last night while watching him play baseball.
So proud that his big brother had hit a home run. “I want to be just like you when I grow up.” If only his little brother would have got the chance to grow up. SMACK! The baseball made a hole in his brother’s wall, but the hole in Brett’s heart was a lot bigger. If only there was something that could fill it.
**They say writing is bleeding on paper. Tonight that is true, my heart bleeds for the precious children who lost their lives in Ulvalde, Texas and for the teacher. Please no gun debate comments, thats not why I wrote this. I wrote because my heart needed to express its emotion.**
Thank you. My heart has been hurting ever since I first heard the news and breaks a little more every time the death toll rises. Prayers for the families and the community of Uvalde. 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏😭😭😭😭😭😭
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💙💙💙
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So sad this happened and your post was an honorable post for that – sad tho
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Thanks, I know, and I don’t like writing sad stories without a happy ending, but just felt led to write this.
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🙏💔
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Shared on my blog, which I’m preparing to start doing again. I’ve been away too long.
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Thanks for sharing and great about you starting your blog back. Look forward to it!
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😢
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Yes, a lot of young lives were lost today. It’s hard to comprehend how someone’s mind can twist to the point where they’d do something like this. Very sad.
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I agree. Its really incomprehensible!
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Sorry if I caused some “lumps” for you.
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That’s okay. Just call me Lumpy.
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I have been away from the news all day. This is very sad
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Yes, and I almost didn’t write about it, but my heart ached. I much prefer the imaginary world in my head!
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My heart aches as well, and I am frustrated with the insanity of our society on this topic.
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Oh yes!! And there were plenty words in my head that I could have used to rant about that!
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I hope you find some joy in your life today. I know I am distracted by this
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Thanks. I will, I go for my massage in 2 hours!
It is easy to be distracted but don’t let it ruin your day. You are out in beautiful nature, embrace that! There is still so much beauty in this world, amidst the evil.
Just remember to use sunscreen! Is your face feeling better?
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My face is ok. I am not sunburned. I think I just got too much sun in general
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Good! Well enjoy being outside and by yourself. Keep an eye out for Igor and take a picture of the horses.
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I had this crazy notion that I was going to write a blog from the hotel here. I didn’t have any time. I have been spending every minute I can in the park seeing as much as I can. I did see a large snake at an overlook today. I even took a photo or two.
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Wait? I thought you were roughing it in a tent?
Sounds like you spent your day just right. 🙂
A large snake? Was it a “pretty” snake?
Did you see more cuter animals?
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Tent 2 nights, hotel 3 nights, tent 2 nights. So most of the nights in a tent. The facilities at the parks are a bit primitive, which I am happy with, but I did need a room with plumbing for a few days.
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I don’t blame you at all. I will freely say that I would need a hotel all nights! But hey, when I was 18 I did go on a 3 day hike in the woods, sleeping in the woods. A hot shower never felt soo good! LOL!
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I am in a little town called Medora that seems to exist to serve the National park visitors.
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Good restaurants?
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Good enough for me. I am eating elk.
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Can’t say I ever had elk, but that would be better than if you said you were eating snake. 🙂
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I am not eating prairie dog
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😶🤚!!
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I saw a lot of prairie dogs, a pronghorn, some turkeys, wild horses, bison, lots of mule deer. Plenty of animals.
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Sounds great! Look forward to seeing some of your photos.
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I have found photography very challenging here.
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Well, you are always up to a challenge, right? I am sure you still have managed to get some good shots. 🙂
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I have an overlook planned for about 4:30AM tomorrow. Wish me luck.
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I will, sounds like you could have some great sunrise 🌅 photos!
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I took misty river photos this morning that didn’t turn out great, ok I guess.
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Ok to you is probably very good to me! Sounds pretty!
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Thanks. It is hard to come to an unknown place and know where the best pictures are. I know my hiking places back home by memory and know where to be and what it might look like.
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Thats the adventurous part. 😉
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I am really enjoying the hiking, though. It feels so nice to set off into the park on a good hike.
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Great! Refreshing to the soul.
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How was your refreshing day?
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Well it would have been even better if I could have been at the beach… LOL! The professional massage was awesome, had been too long since I had one. So now I am going back in 2 weeks. 🙂 I have such a tight knot in my neck(which is normal) that she couldn’t get it out in just one session. Had a good visit with my parent’s, so it was a good, refreshing day.
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Must be all the head smacking
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Hmmm…. Good point. Perhaps I should divide the bill between you and Tippy. It will be in the mail. 😛
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I will pay you in free puns.
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“Haha!” Smartie! Perhaps Mason should fall in a lake tonight.
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Aren’t they always free, doolally?
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You have a point. I should be charging
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😶🤚! That wasn’t my point, but.. sure, go ahead and charge, good luck getting paid.
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Some of my photos do look ok.
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I have no doubt that they look more than OK! 🙂
How was the sunrise this morning?
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I hiked up and saw some bighorn sheep this afternoon.
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Sounds like a good time. I like bighorn sheep. Talking about them and the prairie dogs and bison makes me think of when we went out West. I was probably around 10-12 yeara old. My mom loved taking photos and we were shopping all the time to stop and look and take photos. A fun, relaxing trip, no schedule. The bad thing was my poor Mom sent off all her rolls of film to be developed. You know, what they did back in the old days. 😉 Well, they all got lost in the mail! Shs was so upset. Fortunately you don’t have to worry about that!
We used to wonder where they ended up. Someone got a nice tour of the West!
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I tried to make memories like that for my kids too. It is very nice to have the memories to smile on
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Totally!! And those memories stay in your mind. My Dad would always be tapping on the steering wheel to the tapes playing and singing along. I don’t remember getting bored on road trips. It was fun. We got to stop at restaurants, which was a big deal for we rarely ate out when at home.
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We took a long road trip to Minnesota when I was a kid and on the way back went through the badlands and Mt. Rushmore. I remember that long trip in a packed suburban. Now I am in the Badlands again 40 years later.
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🙂 Nostalgic
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The car broke down three times on that trip. I remember sleeping under a picnic table at a park in Kansas waiting until morning. Whatever, I had fun.
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Oh my! Probably stressful for your parent’s with the breakdowns but not for you!
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For some reason i remember the picnic table in Fredonia Kansas from that trip. The suburban also lost a wheel in Iowa and broke down in the Texas panhandle on the way back.
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Glad you all didn’t have accidents when it broke down.
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I just asked my daughter what her favorite childhood vacation memory was. It was when we went to Charleston South Carolina in 2010, I think, and went to an aquarium. It’s funny because we only went there because of the BP oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico.
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Oh wow! I lived very close to Charleston for a year. Lived on John’s Island. LOVED it!
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I remember that my youngest daughter who was 7 said that we could go get tropical drinks in the cutest voice ever. So I found a smoothie place and we had nice smoothies. So cute.
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Aww! So precious the little memories we store in our brains that pop out.
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Did you take your kids on any big road trips?
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Most of the road trips that we took our kids on were trips to Indiana to be with their cousins. They were so close in age and their cousins have become their best friends. We did go to Florida and Niagara Falls too. They just said recently how they want to go back to Niagara.
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Sounds like they will have some good memories
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They do. It is fun to reminisce with them.
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You’ll be pleased to know that I am roughing it in a tent on the ground tonight.
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Sleeping on a thick air mattress, right? LOL! I am impressed, for I would be waking up with a bad back ache!
So are you surviving without as much coffee as you are used to?
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I did not have space to pack an air mattress, just a little foam mat. Coffee is a sacrifice I am making.
I have about a thousand birds to wake me up this morning.
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Glad you at least have a little foam. I would say that for this, coffee is worth the sacrifice.
Now that is way to wake up with a smile, having a bird choir. 😊
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I have way too many prairie dog photos
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They are just too cute, much cuter than snakes. And probably a lot cuter than what I am writing about right now. Their story will come but tonight its something different.
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You think prairie dogs are cute?
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Yes! Much cuter than snakes!
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My puns must be worth something as they bring so many smiles.
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Hmmmm……let me think! I do believe they have been worth a “Thunk!” already. 😄
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I don’t think I could enjoy a professional massage but I am looking forward to the beach.
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The South Unit is in Mountain time so the sun rises really early compared to the North Unit which is central time.
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I will be sleeping. I will dream of sunrises. LOL
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THAT PAIN MUST BE AWFUL AS YOUR HEART IS AS BIG AS AN OCEAN. i SEND YOU HUGE HUGS AND MY HOPES THAT A LIFEBOAT FULL OF PRECIOUS MEMORIES SOON FLOATS BY.
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Thanks David. I am thankful that I didn’t know anyone who was shot. But I do have friends and relatives who are teachers and students in different schools across the country, so it can be scary.
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Trying to make sense of the nonsensical is hard. Lots of heavy hearts today. Writing is one of the best and healthiest ways to express your feelings.
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Impossible to make sense of and yes, writing is a great outlet for me!
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So tragic 🥲
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Yes! 😔
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In any other country the public outrage would have ensured speedy action and ban on guns.
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But in America we idolize them. 😧
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🤬🤯
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The rest of the world also shares your feelings of horror, and wonders why the US thinks of itself as a civilised country.
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Oh believe me I have wondered the same thing!
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We had something similar here, in Dunblane, Scotland, around 1996. Sixteen children and a teacher killed by a gunman walking into a school. One of the toddlers taking cover was Andy Murray, who later went on to be not bad at tennis. After that and another mass shooting in Hungerford our government banned gun ownership to the general public. We haven’t had another school shooting since then. Not rocket science, is it?
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Not rocket science at all. Alot of us from the US would agree with you! Its totally frustrating!!
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Too many vested interests buying your politicians.
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It’s all truly incomprehensible and a good reminder to hug our loved ones a little more often. Sending thoughts of peace and tranquility. We’re all in shock with this latest episode of heartbreak. There are no answers about how to end this senseless violence.
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Just broken hearted for the victims families and how terrified the kids must have been! 😢
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We all are. So tragic, I cannot fathom what they’re feeling.
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Such a sad state of affairs.
“When will we ever learn . . . when will we ever learn?” ~ >”Where have all the flowers gone?”
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I am afraid we won’t learn until it’s too late! We should have learned years ago!!
Now that song is playing through my mind. So appropriate!
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I felt your heart. The heart of a mother. It’s so very sad. This is a beautiful tribute. I hope it helps even a little bit to heal your heart. ❤️
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Aww! Hi CP! Thank you, my friend. It did help release some emotion. I just knew that I wouldn’t be able to sleep that night without writing something. I really wasn’t planning on it but ….
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I get it. I used to write a lot. Glad it helped.
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