“I wander from one room to the next, down the stairs and back up again and feel like a songbird that has had its wings torn off and flies against the bars of its cage in total darkness. “Outside, fresh air and laughter,” a voice inside me screams; I don’t even try to answer anymore, I lie down on a divan and sleep in order to shorten the time, the silence, the terrible fear too.”
The above quote is by someone who was in a different type of quarantine.
We want to go, we have places to see and things to do, people to see. I get that! We have masks that we don’t like wearing when we are out, they are bothersome people say. I get that too. I find myself having to take a deep breath at times , as I pull it away from my face a little. We have fears too, how bad are things really going to get. What does the future hold? Will a loved one get sick, will I get sick and be in the hospital alone? I have had those same fears, but I alsohave had something else.
I been able to go on walks in the bright sunshine with my family. I have been able to go out to the grocery store and get food that we need. I have been able to be safe in my house, enjoying the comforts of home, even if the 4 walls seem to close in at times. They may close in and I may have my worries, but than I am reminded of the quote at the top of this post. I am reminded of the young girl that wrote it. Anne Frank.
Anne Frank who didn’t spend a month in quarantine but 761 days! The girl who longed to see the sunshine and breathe in the fresh air, feel the wind against her face. The girl who was remarkably strong through her time of hiding but also was human and had her times of sadness and fears. A girl who didn’t have the luxury of enjoying her own house, but instead shared a tiny apartment with 7 other people. People that she didn’t always get along with. People that she had to share 1 bathroom with. They were each allowed 15 minutes in the morning to be in the bathroom when they got awake. They had a schedule they followed.
They didn’t just veg out watching Netflix and eating junk food during the day. They had to be quiet because of the men working right below them. They got a breather during lunch hour when the men went home for lunch.
We want the quarantine lifted, we want life to resume as normal. Anne wanted that too, and after 761 days of being in hiding, she did get to go outside again. She saw the blue sky of Aushwitz Concentration Camp.
This is a reminder to myself, a reminder to myself that I am just sharing with all of you. Let us not forget to count our blessings, even when we may have trouble seeing the sunshine beyond the clouds.