Sometimes life can feel dark. A moment happens that brings you down and you just can’t seem to shake the mood. That happened to me today. All it took was for a song to go through my mind and I remembered why that song used to be special. I remembered the special friendship that is now fractured and it brought pain. I want to fix things, but its beyond my ability, not in my control. I have to learn to let go. I don’t need to lose hope that someday things might be better, though I know they will never be the same. I had to remind myself not to despair for the colors are still there even when at the moment I can’t see.
Gradually the fog started lifting in my head. I began to see the colors and was able to smile as I sent some emails and received some texts. The colors brightened as I felt the long hug of my daughter. I reveled in the light of the joy at watching my teens get along and feeling their love for each other. I felt the warmth of the sunshine as I stepped outside with my dogs and my heart began to have a golden glow.
I saw the colors that were not visible to me this morning. I felt the love of my family and friends and I knew. I knew that even when the colors may be hidden due to the darkness, they are still there. As a friend told me, even when you can’t see the sun because of the clouds, it still is shining behind them. My heart is shining with colors once again.