Surprise! A second post today. You really didn’t think I would let you all hanging, not knowing what Elyssa’s letter said, did you? Well I may have been gently persuaded to ease your suspense. So will the letter be from who you think? Only one way to find out! 🙂
Elyssa’s heart was was soaring as the tears slid down her cheeks. She had dreamed of this moment for so long and now before her eyes it was coming true. She felt like Cinderella , that with 1 stroke of the clock this letter would vanish and not come true. She would wake up lying in her own bed. That Rob and Valerie wouldn’t remember anything. Oh that couldn’t happen! She had to calm her fluttering heart.
She opened the letter up once more and began to read. Letting the words sink in to her soul.
I have been longing for the day that I could write this letter to you. I can only imagine the fluttering of your heart right now and the trembling of your bottom lip.
Your dazzling blue eyes are probably filling with tears. I want to be there to wipe them away. There are so many times that I should have been there and wasn’t. If only I could turn back time and snuggle you in my arms again. Hold you in my lap and rock away your fears.
My dearest Elyssa I never meant for this separation to be so long. I got confused, I lost my way. As I have said in other letters I am so sorry! There is not enough words to describe how truly sorry I am. I know we have corresponded and you have so graciously forgiven me, I just wanted to say it once more.
I need to learn to forgive myself for how I have hurt you, and forgiving yourself is the hardest thing! This would be why I always turned down your requests to meet face to face. I could barely look at myself in the mirror without feeling so guilty. I thought how could I look into your sweet face, knowing how I had hurt you. I felt like your eyes would bore into my soul. My imperfections come glaring out.
I wasn’t ready yet, but I sought help and found it and I am ready now. I know I don’t have to be perfect, you don’t expect me to be. My love is what you most desire.
I don’t want to waste any more years of not seeing you. I want to cherish the moments that we have to reconcile and make the most of them!
You may be thinking, why Alaska? Easy! I won a cruise for 2 and couldn’t think of anyone else that I would rather spend it with, then you. My precious daughter! I want to celebrate the beauty of our reconciliation with the beauty of Alaska. I want to share the breathtaking splendor with you as we share our hearts and step by step form a bond.
Yes, it will take time, it will be a journey, but I am ready for the next step in this journey. I am ready to bring it closer by physically meeting. I want to hold you and never let go. I love you Elyssa, to the moon and back. I remember how you blew me kisses when you were little and I would say goodnight. I remember you sharing with me how you kept blowing me kisses after I would shut the door, believing I would feel them.
Oh my heart can’t wait to embrace! Come quickly my dear, your Mother is waiting with open arms, and more importantly an open heart!
Your Thankful Mom!
PS. I do hope that Rob and Valerie didn’t make it too hard on you in keeping this secret. I was going to have them tell you right away, but they said how you love mysteries and they assured me it would be fun for you. I figured that they would know, as they are your close friends. I do know you have a great sense of humor, so I am betting you did enjoy it. I always loved to hear your laughter ring through out the house.
“Please fasten your seat belts as we are preparing to land.” Elyssa folded the letter in her hand. It was real, this was truly happening. An answer to her prayer and she couldn’t wait for the adventure to begin. She wiped her eyes again, though she was sure they would be filling up and spilling out once more when she saw her Mom. That was Okay, let them spill, her heart was full!
She had some forever memories to make.